I saw you today and you seemed taller
Was I taller before? or did I get shorter?

You spoke but never asked me questions
I thought maybe you lost interest
Or maybe you were nervous.

I haven’t seen you in 8 months. You looked good.
You have never spoken so much. I was surprised.
Maybe you changed or you have missed me.

I thought of you all day after and I knew it’s all in my head.
Nothing is real and its all chemicals in the brain reacting.

But I have to tell you that my soul is tired.
The soul of my atoms is tired.
I cannot hurt her again

She howls….she cries so loud…

I feel the pain through my ears and all the way down to my finger-tips
Its electric…I feel it as I am wirting this letter to you.

Although I want you….I cannot reach for you
I will let you go before I have you, in hopes you will never go.

If it’s meant to be, it will be
If it’s not, then it never was.

June 2024